trust…

Day 52….

I’m sorry that all I seem to post lately is how we’re waiting but that’s all we’ve really done over the past few weeks. 

I did have a follow up doctor appointment on the 20th of last month and this time Bobby was able to go with me.  We signed a ton of consent forms and legal paperwork regarding what we wished to do with the embryos should anything happen to either one of us. Wow! That was a lot to think about.  Having to decide whether we would want another family toting around a Bobby Jr. or Michelle Jr. was more than we could comprehend. Needless to say, that is the only decision we are still praying about.

I’m still on an ever growing list of medications, including my second dose of birth control, which, THANKFULLY, I will stop next Tuesday.

My suppression check visit is scheduled for next Wednesday and after reading several IVF blogs I believe this is where I will learn about the injections and undergo a scan to check for the number and size of available follicles.  Bobby and I will also finish signing consents and write a BIG check to the doctors office.  Prayerfully, if this all goes well and according to plan, I will begin injections on the 15th.  EEK!

Please continue to pray with us for calm nerves and a strong faith in the Lord and His plan.  As we get further along in the process, I’m having to really control my anxieties as well as my hopes.  I am starting to imagine our family with this new addition and while it excites me, it scares me even more to get my hopes up.  I know this is an emotional journey and I accept that we may not be successful but I also have an ever increasing confidence that this time next year my life will be completely different.

Lord, as we get closer and closer to “go time” I thank you for the calmness that you have provided me. I ask that you continue to bless me with a quiet and trusting spirit and faith that no matter the outcome of this journey, you will provide for my family.  God, I may never know the purpose to your plan, but I trust you with my life. I know that today, more than ever, I cannot lean on my own understanding, but I must stand in the fact that you will make my path straight.  Lord, bless my family and prepare us for this addition. I ask that my follicles are plentiful, healthy and strong enough for this next process. I pray I will be quick to learn and understand the complicated injection process.  Lord, bless each individual reading this post and be with them along their journey. In Jesus name I pray. Amen!

Today’s scripture…Proverbs 3:5-6 (my life’s scripture)

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.

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